Jolie,
Sometimes being away from you feels like being in a prison of sorts, and it is not easy to get past that feeling. There are times when I want to just hold my head and cry, but I do not do that. Instead I pray, and afterward sometimes I feel better. I keep your pictures close by when I am in my home, there is one on my desk, a bunch on my bulletin board, and your face is plastered across my desktop on my personal computer. A lot of the time your face is on my Facebook wall as my profile picture as well, just like it is today. It is there for a very good reason. It helps me to stay focused, and always remember why I am on this earth. This business of working towards a goal that involves your well-being is a long one and arduous, yet I know I cannot give up or stop. I just wish it was not taking so long.
I also get frustrated with your mother when she does not allow me to talk to you. Most of the time I get no answer or cursed out when she does answer. There is no good reason for it other than to try to hurt me. It does hurt when I do not get to talk to you, but I refuse to let it drag me down. It has taken practice again and again, but I am learning to channel that negative energy that I get from her into my drive to succeed and make this dream become a reality. I see now why I should have been more vigilant in goal-setting when I was younger. Better late than not at all!
I bought you a blue dress to wear for the summer. I will send it to you this week and I hope your mother lets you know it came from Daddy, though I am not sure at this point why she lies to you about me, so I'll put a picture of it here now for you to see later and then you will understand. I love you Jolie, and I hope you are having a great summer!
Daddy
