An open, running letter to Jolie; my daughter.

The purpose of these letters is for Jolie to read when she gets old enough. Right now I do not get to see her or talk to her. This is a poor substitute for that but it is all I have got at the moment. Read it, leave a comment if you like, and subscribe or leave an email address if you'd like to get my letters to my daughter in your email inbox. Thanks for visiting my page, and God bless you :D

Tuesday, September 27, 2011

My first born daughter.

Jolie,
I decided to write you this morning because I miss you a lot lately. I never get to talk to you anymore, and it pains me. I am sorry I cannot do anything about this right now. I need a lawyer, and they cost money. this is something I do not have, nor have I ever had it. Regardless, I still love you very much, and am pushing every day to find a job that will get me to a place where I can really fight back against the person responsible for our separation. I have not abandoned you, and I think of you every day and night. I have not been sleeping well because I wake up and see your face on my ceiling. Everywhere I look you are there, in other children, other people, everywhere. I am not going to give up this fight, though not being able to see you has taken its toll on me. Restless nights, sleeplessness, anxiety, and worrying are part of my life since your mom has chosen this path.
All I think about every day and night is you. I wonder what you are doing, who you are with, are you okay? I know you miss me. I miss you terribly. I am a grown man and I have wept in frustration over you. I do not know why you are being kept from me, but I have grown angry over it. The only reason I can come up with is that person just wants to inflict pain on me, mercilessly. Using you to do that is despicable and I loathe that type of behavior.You are an innocent baby girl that deserves to see and be with her Daddy, that is me. You do not deserve to be lied to and treated this way, and neither do I.I know this situation  is taking too long to correct, but please have patience with me. I have not given up the fight, and I never will. You are MY daughter, and I am your Daddy.  No one else can replace me, and no one else can replace the spot you have in my heart. You are my firstborn child and my only daughter. I love you more than I love my own life.
Don't give up on me, baby girl. Daddy loves you and I will hold you again in my arms one day soon.
Love,
Daddy