Dear Jolie,
As I sit here thinking about this note I am reflecting back on our conversation today. You were telling me that you wanted some more things, and I am more than willing to get those things for you: it is part of my job as a Daddy. More than that though, my job is to make sure you are raised right and get the proper instruction, are protected from harm, and things like that. Unfortunately, I can't do most of what I should because there is a huge gulf separating us: the divorce between your mother and I. Apparently it serves as a way for her to use you against me mercilessly by keeping me from visiting you or seeing you. I did get to talk to you today, and I am grateful for that.
I have not been writing here lately because the pain of being separated from you is very intense, so intense that it breaks me, a grown, gruff man, down to the point of tears. Every time I came here I got stalled. I love you just that much.
No more. I have resolved I cannot let that emotion stop me from writing you letters here anymore, no matter how much it pains me. Right now this is the only outlet I have to let you know I am here and that I have not given up the fight for your love, and your presence in my immediate surroundings. You are precious to me, like 'the ring' was precious to Gollum in that crazy movie about the hobbits :)
We are like two peas in a pod, you and I, and I know it and you know it. The connection we have is intangible, and I am not sure if this is what makes your mother so mad, but it sure seems like it. It can't be broken, separated, rubbed out, blasted away, lied on, killed, or forgotten.
When I look into your eyes in my mind's eye it gives me the strength I need to carry on. The first time I laid my eyes on you I sold all my dreams. Every day that passes brings me closer to you. I'm struggling, I'm holding onto my faith, I'm praying, and I am going to find a way to see you again. You can count on it.
I love you more than a fat kid loves cake :) I'll never let you go.
much love, Baby Girl
Daddy
As I sit here thinking about this note I am reflecting back on our conversation today. You were telling me that you wanted some more things, and I am more than willing to get those things for you: it is part of my job as a Daddy. More than that though, my job is to make sure you are raised right and get the proper instruction, are protected from harm, and things like that. Unfortunately, I can't do most of what I should because there is a huge gulf separating us: the divorce between your mother and I. Apparently it serves as a way for her to use you against me mercilessly by keeping me from visiting you or seeing you. I did get to talk to you today, and I am grateful for that.
I have not been writing here lately because the pain of being separated from you is very intense, so intense that it breaks me, a grown, gruff man, down to the point of tears. Every time I came here I got stalled. I love you just that much.
No more. I have resolved I cannot let that emotion stop me from writing you letters here anymore, no matter how much it pains me. Right now this is the only outlet I have to let you know I am here and that I have not given up the fight for your love, and your presence in my immediate surroundings. You are precious to me, like 'the ring' was precious to Gollum in that crazy movie about the hobbits :)
We are like two peas in a pod, you and I, and I know it and you know it. The connection we have is intangible, and I am not sure if this is what makes your mother so mad, but it sure seems like it. It can't be broken, separated, rubbed out, blasted away, lied on, killed, or forgotten.
When I look into your eyes in my mind's eye it gives me the strength I need to carry on. The first time I laid my eyes on you I sold all my dreams. Every day that passes brings me closer to you. I'm struggling, I'm holding onto my faith, I'm praying, and I am going to find a way to see you again. You can count on it.
I love you more than a fat kid loves cake :) I'll never let you go.
much love, Baby Girl
Daddy
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